Today we hope to get in a little snowshoeing, if conditions aren’t too glumpy or icy. A combo is on the ground now, glump on top, ice underneath. Both conditions are hard on a chronic foot injury from the 1998 ice storm. And R. may be bringing up some wood, though a January thaw is on. Here in Maine we are members of the ongoing creation story, and of the blogosphere.
It’s not easy to get my head around this (or my keyboard). I think God pays people to read God’s story. It’s the reverse of the commercial venture. God makes parts of His story capable of reading themselves in the story through the experience of being—being in The Story. God gives breath and body and situation to stories interesting to God … in every expression of a particular being’s life. Not only is God telling the story, sort of outside (in the darkened gallery above as it were), but God is in the whole story. In Time we are being told. We are some of Time’s parts. (Clear? hmm…)
Anyway, see where the “pay” comes in? We get all the good gifts of Being in exchange for reading the story… but, yes, we also pay to be part of and to read the story. That’s where evil comes in, the evil gifts of being. The evil portion of God’s Being-gift. Here evil means suffering—not the bad we do, per se, to one another—but the suffering it causes everyone. As a maker or fixer you know this from your own experience. Suffering is in making, being and fixing. As are other aspects of emotion.
But let’s back up. The screwy thing about all this is the Self. Self came in with all the fairy godmothers and said to God, “You wouldn’t be having all this worship without paying your worshipers. If you stopped paying them with only good gifts they would cease to ‘believe’.”
God glances into the account balances of creation, sees some leftover energy from The Beginning, and answers, “Well here’s power leftover from my initial struggle to get it all going (without that it wouldn’t go): Pure Suffering…. See what you can do with that. But I don’t think it’ll do you any good.”
“Because it’s worth it.”